Terrors of my sleep

I lay awake.
I lay asleep.
I lay forever,
My perpetual dreams.
I know I'm wrong,
I'll never be,
The one I am,
When I'm asleep.
I can see them
Evolving scenes.
While I lay lost,
Inside my dreams.
Impossible to know,
The perfect peace.
Forever lay awake
In screaming sleep.
I hear him cry,
She kissed his cheek,
While in other rooms,
Another weeps.
Though as they cry,
and kiss and weep,
Their changing roles,
While I feign sleep.
I listen in silence ,
To my brother weep,
and I know that soon,
He'll evolve without me.