For She Who Was My Friend

You look me in the eye,
Stare me dead in the face.
I watch as you force your eyes,
To see right  through me,
As if I am not here.
As though I don't exist.
So I ask you, was I not your friend?
Once upon a time we would chat,
Gossip about boys,
Drink and laugh together.
Now I bide my time when I see you,
Begging for the day to be done
So I can go home and drink away
The awkward silence.
Alone.
I know I'm not aloud to miss you,
I know why you blame me.
But I'll still ask her about you.
Have her play my role for now.
'Cause I'm not the bitch
He tells you I'm being.
I'm not just a pathetic piece of shit.
But I  know you have to defend him.
Even when you know he's being a prick.
So for now, I'll keep my distance.
Care for you from a far.
Every night I will be praying
That God gives you the strength,
That you may open your eyes
And see that you are everything in HIM,
You are all that you are,
Beauty and sass, confident and good.
And you deserve much better,
Than the one who's bringing you down.
I pray you'll find your wings,
And fly to your throne.
Because hunni, your a queen.
He doesn't treat you right.
You deserve someone much better.
I hope you see that soon.
I hope you find a good man
Someone will reach for the stars,
Just to show you the light.
Because hunni, you can shine.
So for now I'll take a bow.
Take my place among the shadows.
I be hiding in the wings.
Show you the clues.
I'll wear the mask of our friend.
And I'll take on your burden.
Do you feel lighter now?
I'll gladly bear the weight,
If it helps you off the ground.